At just 17 years old, Eva Self had no idea of the dramatic turn her life was about to take. After being involved in a serious car accident, doctors told her that she would never walk again.
In the below Focus on the Family podcast, she shares her personal story and while it did ultimately have a happy ending, it was far from an easy road.
Eva recalls the lonely moments after being told by the doctor that she would never walk again…
“I remember screaming as loud I could, ‘Why God, why? What have I done that was so terrible to deserve this?'”
“You know what I think happened at that time? I think the God of the universe, my friend met me right where I was and He gave me permission to tell Him how I felt. And so I did.”
“I couldn’t understand why this had happened to me. I don’t know about you, but when something bad happens to me, I can tell you every good thing that has happened since birth. I was a good girl, I went to church every Sunday, I said my prayers at night…I’m just a good girl, you know.”
“So I laid there in my self-righteousness, and we know what the Scriptures say about our self-righteousness. I lay there in my filthy rags trying to figure out why this had happened to me.”
Eva shares about hitting rock bottom
“You know, I don’t know all there is to know about God… But I do know this, I know that He and only He is able to take awful things, broken things, things that are just in pieces, and He takes them and He shapes them and He molds them and He uses them for His good and our good. I know that’s what He’s done in my life.”
“I got out of the hospital and went home, and for the first time in my life I was alone. I always had a lot of people around me, and suddenly there was no one. When I woke up in the mornings, I didn’t want to wake up – so much so that I tried to commit suicide twice.”
“But you know I believe in the power of prayer, and I know that somebody, somewhere was still praying for me. And God still had His hand on my life. All He was saying was what He’d been saying all along, ‘Eva, I still can take you just like you are and make you into the best you that you can be.'”